Lies

[depressedmetalhead]

You reached out in a cold world
Within the dirt and mud, you were a pearl
Coaxed me out of my shell
Made me believe my soul possessed no hell


Then you lied to me
It broke my heart
To realize this could be
A time we grow apart
I trust, they kill
Didn’t think you’d feel the same thrill


You'll never know the pain
When I need a hug, think of you
And remember you hurt me too
The lie stings but reality cuts more;
I cling to truth and against it, you wage war


“I get it, I’m sorry.”
Authenticity was always yours before
It seems I don't know anything anymore
I’ve never heard your voice hit that note
Never thought you’d use that quote,
The same tired excuse
That means I’m going to lose.


If I leave you, I’ll never be complete
But I can’t stay and face defeat
Yet again, just like always
I’ll be stuck in my ways
Pretending everything’s fine
But I don’t know if I can do it this time


It hurts too much
To see your face, to feel your touch
To never understand what’s true
And what is not genuinely you…

Hey everyone. Just started writing poetry about a week ago, and I found it a great way to get my emotions out. This has taken a lot of courage to post and I'm a teen struggling with mental health, so please be kind. I know it isn't the best, but thanks for reading and critiquing!  

Lies

You reached out in a cold world
Within the dirt and mud, you were a pearl
Coaxed me out of my shell
Made me believe within me there was no hell


Then you lied to me
And it broke my heart
To remember this was
How I got here in the start
I trust, they kill
Didn’t think you’d feel the same thrill


You'll never know the pain
When I need a hug, think of you
And remember you hurt me too
The lie burns but reality cuts more
Knowing I cling to truth and against it you wage war


I can’t trust anyone
I don't know why
I thought you’d be different
And never tell a lie


Then you saw my anger, witnessed my hate
Felt the remorse far too late
Apologized for all the wrong reasons
Only needed me to protect you from your demons
I love you, and against truth you ploy
Seems you’re just like every other boy


I was a fool, that is easy to see
Now I don't know if your only love is me
I've faced many daggers, but the pain never eases
Always becomes one of my many reasons
To leave this dark and depressing place
Maybe if I go, I won't have to see your face


“I get it, I’m sorry”
Authenticity was always yours before
It seems I don't know anything anymore
I’ve never heard your voice hit that note
Never thought you’d use that quote,
The same tired excuse
That means I’m going to lose.


If I leave you, i’ll never be complete
But I can’t stay and face defeat
Yet again, just like always
I’ll be stuck in my ways
Pretending everything’s fine
But I don’t know if I can do it this time


It hurts too much
To see your face, to feel your touch
To never understand what’s true
And what is not really you…