Supposed to be?

[MelaniaStarHans]

I'm supposed
to be
strong.
I'm not
strong
but weak and
vulnerable.

I'm supposed
to be
kind.
I'm not
kind
but twisted and
cruel.

I'm supposed
to be
wise.
I'm not
wise
but silly and
inexperienced.

I'm supposed
to be
happy.
I'm not
happy
but broken and
depressed.

I'm supposed
to be
organized.
I'm not
organized
but messy and
anxious.

I'm supposed
to be
willing.
I'm not
willing
but stubborn and
grieving.

I'm supposed
to be
trusting.
I'm not
trusting
but angry and
nervous.

I'm supposed
to be
patient.
I'm not
patient
but frustrated and
spiteful.

I'm supposed
to be
calm.
I'm not
calm
but unfocused and
confused.

I'm supposed
to be
perfect.
But how can
I
when I am merely
human?

I'm supposed
to be
me.
I don't even
know who me
is.
Is me who
everyone else
sees?
Or can I
create a new
me?