09-18-2020, 01:55 AM
What is it?
I ask myself this constantly.
A wave of doubt is haunting me.
What is it about me that has sealed this fate?
A quality I was not endowed?
Am I too driven
or too loud?
I feel as though I have been cursed,
forever solely
I'll roam the earth.
I try to place the fault outside
contracting walls that wrap my mind,
but the finger always points the same-
"I only have myself to blame."
I watch,
absorb sweet narratives,
convinced that's how I ought to live.
I grasp at air, distort what I see,
chasing a fable that's just beyond reach.
I know I should find peace inside of myself,
but god do I wish I had somebody else.
I ask myself this constantly.
A wave of doubt is haunting me.
What is it about me that has sealed this fate?
A quality I was not endowed?
Am I too driven
or too loud?
I feel as though I have been cursed,
forever solely
I'll roam the earth.
I try to place the fault outside
contracting walls that wrap my mind,
but the finger always points the same-
"I only have myself to blame."
I watch,
absorb sweet narratives,
convinced that's how I ought to live.
I grasp at air, distort what I see,
chasing a fable that's just beyond reach.
I know I should find peace inside of myself,
but god do I wish I had somebody else.