Reach Out To You

[Fox Womb]

"Their eyes don't seem as friendly
Their smiles invisible
I can't reach out to you like I did before"

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I'm only assembled
on the outside
But you want to hear the truth
So untie me by
the back of my mind
I just want for you
to feel better
To feel lighter

For eleven months
I've tried to forget
the marks on your arms
on your legs
across your stomach

The first time I saw them
you were standing there
Smiling // welcoming

But I still think about you
from time to time
Often at the worst of times

Like last night
I even had a dream
where it felt
just like last year
But I wrapped my arms
around you
Just like
I never got the chance to

When I woke up
I was too busy remembering
the cigarettes
and the perfume
And the light that moves around you
On the day we spent
sitting in the sun
Listening to
Lilith
and Run Forever

I just wish that I had the guts
to help you
But instead I just
swallowed my youth
with the vomit and the guilt
And I tied myself together
And for eleven months
I tried not to remember

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"Enclosed now
Isolated in a place that holds me back
When I reach out to you I know I seem cold
But it's hard to break
Hard to find another way

Nothing's changed"

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"Reach Out To You" by Adventures

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The poem before I fucked it up:

I'm only assembled
on the outside
But you want to hear the truth
So untie me by
the back of my mind
I just want for you
to feel better
To feel lighter

I still think about you
from time to time
Often at the worst of times

Like last night
I even had a dream
Where it felt
just like last year
But I wrapped my arms
around you
Just like
I never got the chance to

Remembering
the cigarettes and perfume
And the light that moves around you
On the day we spent
sitting in the sun
Listening to Lilith
and Run Forever

I just wish that I had
the guts  to help you
But instead I just
swallowed my youth
with the vomit and the guilt
And I tied myself together
And tried to forget that I still miss you.

This is my first poem I post here. I'm kind of nervous posting it in the "Intensive critique" section, but as I've seen many people say, everyone sucks at first, anyway. I feel this will be the best way to improve.

I tried to edit it and make it better before posting it here, but I think I indulged to much in cheap cliches and ruined it.