the truth still sounds like lies

[CRNDLSM]

I like the way you put that dukealien!  But please, there's no due respect 

it's not like i imagined

no ignition       no baptism        no cathartic trumpet

just facts and a nervous joke
like undressing at the doctor's office

With all due respect to @CRNDLSM, I disagree.  To paraphrase (perhaps incorrectly), finding the truth is kind of flat:  you thought you knew the truth already  - hence the embarassed joke - and what has changed, really?  Even if it in fact "set you free," as claimed, how does this freedom differ from the previously unsuspected captivity?  A particular letdown if you worked hard to attain this state of accurate understanding, and now it's... just there.

(No, I don't disagree with liking how she said it.)

Note that this is just before you realize that you can *do things* with this new understanding.  But not yet.