the end of an old life

[faerykid]

this is the first poem i post here (but not my very first poem). thanks
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Loosing you was like God coming down

towards my sky from the east, to pardon Hell



Grudges, weighed into my throat

like a book, heavy and five hundred pages long



Listing my transgressions, my infractions, my flaws

my last breath welling up inside my lungs like a ticking bomb



because there is nothing to blame, not a thing

Just time and change, and things holding us back



and people and places

and money and loss



and I lost everything

its all being reclaimed by the bramble and soil



but I would do it all again before I returned to the crumbling dust



I would do it again a thousand times if I could fix this



if I could save them, save us all, I would return to the start



too early in life am I begging for another chance

pleading at the feet of God, hands clasped together



mercy, mercy

for the ones I have lost

and the ones I will loose



mercy, mercy

take me instead of them

take me instead of them
take them instead of me