Apathetic Suicide

[AllisonBangert]

It's 3:00 am and I don't care
It's dark out and I don't care

I was screaming and feeling
I swear I was
I was crying and sobbing,
throbbing and wanting to die

It's 3:05 am and I don't care
the house is silent and I don't care

I was laughing and smiling
I promise I was
I was singing and humming,
running and wanting to win

It's 3:15 am and I don't care
I have to wake early and I don't care

I was holding back tears, contemplating
Worried about my loved ones
Worried about my future
Worried about dying
Scared to do it
Scared to be so selfish
I was screaming, I swear
I promise, I was

It's 3:30 am and I'm crying again 
But I don't care 
I'm not worried about my loved ones 
And I'm not worried about my future 
And I'm not worried about dying 
And I'm not scared to do it 
It's 4:00 am and I don't care
It's 4:00 am and I won't wake up
It's 4:00 am and I don't care

I like a good piece about suicide. I like how you kept it simple in expression but, a good image would be nice in all this and to do away with all the "ands" I think this

It's 3:30 am and I'm crying again 
But I don't care 
I'm not worried about my loved ones 
And I'm not worried about my future 
And I'm not worried about dying 
And I'm not scared to do it 

would read better like

It's 3:30 am and I'm crying again 
But I don't care 
I'm not worried about my loved ones 
I'm not worried about my future 
I'm not worried about dying 
I'm not scared to do it 

I'd like to see imagery to your suicidal thoughts. Maybe less repetitive words.Otherwise an intense piece.

Thanks for the advice! I edited it