Fake

[Mikeodial]

Kickboxing again. More violence.
Seems to fulfil, clearing clogged arteries and thoughts simultaneously;
in the gymnasium of satisfaction.
Suddenly all is blank, dark,
the power is out.

Waking slowly, bruises, hangover, dull pain are companions.
Piercing light through clinical blinds,
illuminate a mind with little else present.
Slowly, my awakening begins,
recollections of events and self produce
Nothing.

Motionless, but able to move.
A mind searches desperately for the library of knowledge which is me.
Age … precisely unknown,
Location … somewhere in hospital,
Name … nameless,
Family … MIA
Memory erased.
Disk failure. Where is the rescue disk?

OK, this joke should end now.
The nightmare of “nothing” begins,
But I am awake.
Aware.
Alert.
Empty.

Terrified but without specific worries,
A past unknown haunts,
not because of its presence, but rather absence.
Deep space traveled through …
Without signs,
experiences,
knowledge.

If no past, then what future?
Unknown without the momentum engine,
a rudder,
signposts,
guides,
companions.
A sail without wind.

All that remains is Now.
Each second to be remembered.
New.
To fill gigabytes of fresh storage.
A solid state drive with no memory loss.
No pollution,
or opinions,
political parties,
affiliations or clubs.
Because there are none in me,
just the Now.
The presence of each moment.
A hospital room with its noises and smells.

So now I lie here, still human but more so.
Identity stripped completely,
Left for life,
to start anew
in this moment.
The present.
Me and my soul alone.
Unseparated and aware.

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This poem could work too. Parts of it have a robotic or computerized feel that I like. It's good to ramble some, but parts of it ramble too much.

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Waking slowly, bruises, hangover, dull pain are companions.
Piercing light through clinical blinds,
illuminate a mind with little else present.
Slowly, my awakening begins,
recollections of events and self produce
Nothing.


That part sounds good when I hear it with a computer-like voice.
One of the commas might be out of place though.