I eat lemons like I eat oranges

[DeathofaSaint]

I eat lemons like I eat oranges,
I dig a nail into a lemon
peel its skin off
Picking off strings of pulp.

I peel it like an orange,
finger through the center peeling off individual slices
 line them out on a ceramic plate

I eat lemons like I eat oranges
I survive carelessly like I live with insecurity
I take all good with a grain of salt, I digest deleterious materials

I eat the slices off the plate sugar-coated
They burn and sting the roof of my mouth
but it feels so good
a vile taste 
head-clearing
fresh and fruitful

I eat lemons like I eat oranges
I slice into my skin like pulp,
Bloody, thick juices flowing out

I love the things I hate
I cry like I smile
I run away like I sleep
I hurt myself like I know what’s best for me

I eat lemons like I eat oranges,
I peel off slices,
put them in a lunchbox
A side with a sandwich
Just as much vitamin C as an orange
the same shape,
But yellow, agonizingly bitter
Faster erosion of enamel.

I eat lemons like I eat oranges.
Even though I don’t like lemons.