10-31-2024, 06:00 AM
I've Too Much of Not Enough
I need Sara to tell me what’s what.
But, she doesn’t want to do that anymore.
So now, I have to talk to myself—
and I’m not half as brilliant or funny as she is or I think I am,
so it makes me miserable.
Mortisha Gomez hated America.
Big flags.
America.
Big American flags.
80s films.
I don’t want to be a rock n’ roll star.
It’s time to look like Elvis.
The fat one.
The big fat dead one.
—How much did this car cost? Can I crash it into a wall?
Where is Mark E Smith? Where is that when you d it?
Long, thin, and tickly. It didn’t make sense then and it doesn’t make sense now.
Black eye. I love you.
Cheek biter. I love you.
Instigator of violence. I love you.
America’s so famous that she’s spiked all our memories with unnatural lighting,
What’s good, anyway?
—Being unique’s not all it’s cracked up to be, the painting of Mona Lisa said.
Arrogance is fucking with you.
You want to write a book.
But it has to be a great book.
But, you can’t write a great book.
So, you post something on the internet... .
Depression is for suckers.
Desperation’s where it’s at.
Hope! Hope! Hope! Sex, sex, Adidas, sex, car, house.
I’ll look better tomorrow.
I look better when I’m drunk… unfortunately, so do you.
I need Sara to tell me what’s what.
But, she doesn’t want to do that anymore.
So now, I have to talk to myself—
and I’m not half as brilliant or funny as she is or I think I am,
so it makes me miserable.
Mortisha Gomez hated America.
Big flags.
America.
Big American flags.
80s films.
I don’t want to be a rock n’ roll star.
My work of art.
It’s time to look like Elvis.
The fat one.
The big fat dead one.
—How much did this car cost? Can I crash it into a wall?
Where is Mark E Smith? Where is that when you d it?
Long, thin, and tickly. It didn’t make sense then and it doesn’t make sense now.
Black eye. I love you.
Cheek biter. I love you.
Instigator of violence. I love you.
America’s so famous that she’s spiked all our memories with unnatural lighting,
What’s good, anyway?
—Being unique’s not all it’s cracked up to be, the painting of Mona Lisa said.
Arrogance is fucking with you.
You want to write a book.
But it has to be a great book.
But, you can’t write a great book.
So, you post something on the internet... .
Depression is for suckers.
Desperation’s where it’s at.
Hope! Hope! Hope! Sex, sex, Adidas, sex, car, house.
I’ll look better tomorrow.
I look better when I’m drunk… unfortunately, so do you.
