04-29-2017, 03:16 AM
This, I won’t share with anyone
Not a soul, not a single living breath will hear it
Because it hurts too much to think about,
To talk about and to feel
What I felt when you had said you loved me.
It was the first time you ever said it
And I had said it many more and meant it
I told you how I never once stopped thinking of you
And how I kept a heart shaped necklace you left
In my bedroom the first night I knew you.
We lost touch, most people do.
You found a guy who liked you too
I saw you at the fairgrounds with him
It hurt like hell, but you were happy then
Months later, after calling your disconnected phone 100 times
I finally figure out a way to contact you, through a mutual friend of mine
I was like a desperado, and you were my Aztec treasure
A friendship that should have never ended, a love without measure
And talk and talk we did, all through the night
Held the phone close and filled our ears with light
Sweet nothings that could only come from two lonely souls
Longing to be together again, a fire anew in the coals
I was looking forward to the day you would come back
We talked forever about that day, and how
In the cover of sheets, we would hold each other again
Discussing at what temperature our hearts would melt together
And leave puddles and stains in the linens
And it never happened. You never came.
I was so distraught, I cursed your name
I gave up on that town, I wouldn’t dare return
Never again, not without you there. Fuck it, let it burn.
So I joined the Navy, and I set my sights high
Told you all about it even though you would sigh
You told me, the day I graduated from that place
That you had a boyfriend, and that you would stay
In Hawaii, so far away, but still I kept
The idea of being together alive
And so I sweated and toiled, spoke daily with you
Until one fateful success, my dreams came true
My worked paid off and I was the top of my class
Picked submarine duty in the off chance
That it would send me to Hawaii to be with you
And thought of all the wonderful things we would do
It was there in my dorm that I told you about
How I kept your heart necklace you had lost around
The first time I traced a heart into your back
And whispered under the sound of the ocean “I love you”
But all things don’t last, and when we finally met again
Under volcano stars and sweaty palm trees
I finally told you, face to face
What you truly meant to me
It was love, it was pure, it was honest
The way our bodies melded in the forest
of desire in that state park honeymoon
the week went past, it was over too soon
But
I was betrayed
Your heart belonged to someone,
Someone who was not me
Somewhere across the sea
Each hour was a trial of fighting back the tears
Of a love that had been nurtured over ten long years
And in the cover of darkness I sped and flew away
To a cliff to see if today was my last day
I climbed over the railing but I couldn’t take the leap
My heart was pounding, but my body was weak
And so I did the only thing that would rid me of you
I took that heart shaped necklace and threw threw threw.
Not a soul, not a single living breath will hear it
Because it hurts too much to think about,
To talk about and to feel
What I felt when you had said you loved me.
It was the first time you ever said it
And I had said it many more and meant it
I told you how I never once stopped thinking of you
And how I kept a heart shaped necklace you left
In my bedroom the first night I knew you.
We lost touch, most people do.
You found a guy who liked you too
I saw you at the fairgrounds with him
It hurt like hell, but you were happy then
Months later, after calling your disconnected phone 100 times
I finally figure out a way to contact you, through a mutual friend of mine
I was like a desperado, and you were my Aztec treasure
A friendship that should have never ended, a love without measure
And talk and talk we did, all through the night
Held the phone close and filled our ears with light
Sweet nothings that could only come from two lonely souls
Longing to be together again, a fire anew in the coals
I was looking forward to the day you would come back
We talked forever about that day, and how
In the cover of sheets, we would hold each other again
Discussing at what temperature our hearts would melt together
And leave puddles and stains in the linens
And it never happened. You never came.
I was so distraught, I cursed your name
I gave up on that town, I wouldn’t dare return
Never again, not without you there. Fuck it, let it burn.
So I joined the Navy, and I set my sights high
Told you all about it even though you would sigh
You told me, the day I graduated from that place
That you had a boyfriend, and that you would stay
In Hawaii, so far away, but still I kept
The idea of being together alive
And so I sweated and toiled, spoke daily with you
Until one fateful success, my dreams came true
My worked paid off and I was the top of my class
Picked submarine duty in the off chance
That it would send me to Hawaii to be with you
And thought of all the wonderful things we would do
It was there in my dorm that I told you about
How I kept your heart necklace you had lost around
The first time I traced a heart into your back
And whispered under the sound of the ocean “I love you”
But all things don’t last, and when we finally met again
Under volcano stars and sweaty palm trees
I finally told you, face to face
What you truly meant to me
It was love, it was pure, it was honest
The way our bodies melded in the forest
of desire in that state park honeymoon
the week went past, it was over too soon
But
I was betrayed
Your heart belonged to someone,
Someone who was not me
Somewhere across the sea
Each hour was a trial of fighting back the tears
Of a love that had been nurtured over ten long years
And in the cover of darkness I sped and flew away
To a cliff to see if today was my last day
I climbed over the railing but I couldn’t take the leap
My heart was pounding, but my body was weak
And so I did the only thing that would rid me of you
I took that heart shaped necklace and threw threw threw.
