Help me

[chanchan77]

But I'm falling for you harder now when I'm not supposed to be because if they all found out they would call me weird and turn their heads when I walked by. Hell, if you found out you might call me weird. You might start to feel uncomfortable around me because we are supposed to be just friends, not lovers. You would probably stop touching me the way you do. Stop cuddling. Stop holding my hand and brushing your thumb across my skin. But hell, if we are supposed to be just friends then why are we doing those things in the first place? Why are you allowing it? Do you maybe feel the same way I do? No because you like that boy. But does that stupid boy look at you the way I do? Do you even notice the way I look at you? How I stare at you a little longer than "just friends" do. How my eyes slowly fall to the direction of your lips. No. You are so oblivious. And I can't tell you. Can't tell you how I feel because you would probably look at me in disgust. But what if you didn't? What if you felt the same way. What if that stupid boy is just a distraction for you. Distracts you from me. That is unlikely though, right babe? Huh, babe. Funny how we call each other names that a couple would call one another. Oh yeah, a lot of friends do that anyway. Friends also say "I love you" to each other, right? I say it to a lot of my friends. They say it back. But when I say it to you I mean it in a different way but you don't notice. You say it back but in that dumb friend way. But what if you mean it like I do? What if I'm oblivious too. And oh, I'm praying to God that that's the case. But I will never know for sure and that's what's killing me.
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Okay so this isn't really a poem more of just something I had to get off my chest or my mind because frankly I can't tell anyone about it. But anyway anyone can feel free to make it into a poem or something...

Also sorry I haven't been on I have had a lot of school and such so please do not think I am never coming back its just I don't have much time.

[abu nuwas]

Faint heart ne'er won fair lady. Butter her up something cruel. People like that. If there is a stupid boy, then that's perfect: you explain, that as a good friend, you ought to want it to come out right for her, but you can't, because she's so wonderful, and you realise de da de da de da.


Or just leave your mum alone......