5 Months

[i.might.be.a.bit.sad]

In November,
I told myself I loved him
I told myself my heart raced for him.
I told myself I smiled for him.
I told myself I would remember every moment.

In December,
My heart raced,
as he chased me.
I remembered every moment-
His hand on my arm.
Running running, running.
My backpack making bruises on my arms.
Screaming at someone ANYONE to help me.
Looking at their faces, as no one did.
I did not love, because of him
I did not smile, because of him.

It is May.
I smile for her.
My heart beats with hers.
I love her, and I remember every beautiful moment.

I don't have to tell myself anything.

[Mark101]

Hello i.might.be.bit.sad. - (I hope you'e not by the way, sad that is)

Anyway,

This is quite a journey for the protagonist, I really feel for her. I think you handled the subjects well.

A couple of things for you to think about.

The first stanza - I like the message, but perhaps beginning each line with "I told myself", is a tad overkill. I couldn't decern any particular meter you have to observe, to perhaps every other line would be enough. Maybe something like -

In November,
I told myself I loved him
I told myself my heart raced for him. ............(And that my heart raced just for him)
I told myself I smiled for him.
I told myself I would remember every moment. ...............(That I'd remember every moment).

In December,
My heart raced, ............I'm just feeling I could do with a bit more here - "My heart "did" race". Just gives me that bit extra affirmation that even if it didn't race before, it is now.

as he chased me.
I remembered every moment- .............does this have to be passed tense? "I remember every moment" might work better.
His hand on my arm.
Running running, running.
My backpack making bruises on my arms.
Screaming at someone ANYONE to help me. ............Screaming "for" someone, might sound better than "at" someone in particular.

Looking at their faces, as no one did. ..............."but" no one did. Just sounds better to my ear.
I did not love, because of him (comma)
I did not smile, because of him.

It is May.
I smile for her.
My heart beats with hers.
I love her, and I remember every beautiful moment.

I don't have to tell myself anything.

I like this last stanza, and I don't think I would change any of it. I like the transition to finding your true self and being genuinely happy.

Hope you don't mind too much my comments, there only my thoughts. I'm sure others might disagree completely LOL.

best regards

Mark

[RiverNotch]

In November,
I told myself I loved him
I told myself my heart raced for him.
I told myself I smiled for him.
I told myself I would remember every moment. All the same thing. And there aren't even any differences in image to make the whole stanza more vivid. There is an obsessive quality in the repetition, sure, but it comes off as a bore. (and yipes, I think I have to reexamine a few of my own drafts, now)

In December,
My heart raced,
                   as he chased me. Meh here. This whole thing could be way more vivid -- I can envision a grand hunt, a real nice stag chase, but that's more me wanting to read Bone, than the poem being all evocative.
I remembered every moment-
      His hand on my arm.
      Running running, running. 
      My backpack making bruises on my arms.
      Screaming at someone ANYONE to help me. "Screaming for..." You're not actually screaming at anyone.
      Looking at their faces, as no one did. Meh here. As per the earlier comment, this isn't really vivid. Sure, there's something going on, and I can tell what that something is, but it's presented so....typically. It would be great spoken as some sort of dramatic peace, sure, but it wouldn't really be poetry if it depended on that.
I did not love, because of him.
I did not smile, because of him. Meh again. Also, what? The plot takes a confusing turn here -- is the speaker accusing his or her (I'm gonna assume her) love as egotistical, because of abuse? If so, how the heck does the poem show that? That could work in an audiovisual medium, sure, but here on paper, I've not a hit. 

It is May.
I smile for her.
My heart beats with hers.
I love her, and I remember every beautiful moment. Though the plot here is obvious, there isn't a real connection between this and the earlier. So the subject chased her in the earlier stanzas....and then, the subject has a new love or whatever? It's a dud -- and a massive soapysoap cliche, too, especially as presented. It could have more depth, more fullness, but meh. Meh.

I don't have to tell myself anything. Meh. Also, what?