On my mind

[Freestylekilla]

So I have alot on my mind
As I sit her in class
And to reality I am blind
Not wanting to choose this path

But I have no other option
My mind is in complete control
Like a fruit that has turned rotten
Giving up or trying both a null

Now what's on my mind
Is only truth and love
I am in a relationship one of a kind
Wanting to just shove

All this emotion that I feel and keep
Not getting what I want or need
Questioning everything not being able to sleep
The dreams I am getting in are going to deep

Now I feel trapped in Dream
Which I dont enjoy or desire
Wanting to be two colors connected at the seam
But the designer was a liar

So now I am stuck trying to connect
When she is thousands of miles away
Yet the distance I neglect
So this knowledge causes me to sway

Feeling so powerless do I call it a day
So much contemplation
Wish I could mold this creation like clay
My heart cant deal with this fragmentation

She has it all and took it with her
Is that greed or is it a misinterpretation
Wish we could talk and concur
Maybe all of this is a message of relevation

Who really knows I just let it all out
Maybe I was voicing out all of my doubt
Doing it this way is better then a scream or a shout
So now back to class determining this rout