Mother Dearest

[Indie]

V.4

Close your eyes and we’ll pretend it never happened…

One…

Two…

Three…

The expression on your face hasn’t changed
The echo of your words still fresh in my memory
A never ending slap

'Cause I’m not the first girl
That’s ever had a man manipulate his way
Past the button on her jeans to leave a bloody mess
Along with a whispered “hush”
Indentations of my teeth imprinted on my lips

And how proud you must be
That I’m such a bleeding disappointment
My heart pinned like a scarred badge
On my rhetorical sleeve, that refuses to drown
In the alcoholic dousing I’m happy to give it

I’m so full of wonderful obscenities
Words I never learnt from you
When silence was your motto
To the things a young girl should know
About the big bad world out there

Close your eyes and we’ll pretend it never happened…

And I’ll pretend I don’t know your secret
The one you’ve been hiding behind out of duty
To a man don't love
Still pretending nothing is wrong
Afraid to admit that men should never have that power

So, just close your eyes and we’ll pretend it never happened…

...

V.3 (Complete Overhaul)

Close your eyes and we’ll pretend it never happened…

One…

Two…

Three…

Memories flood my mind
With the looks of yesterday
The expression on your face hasn’t changed
The echo of your words still fresh
Like a never ending slap

Cause I’m not special, I’m not the first girl
That’s ever had a man manipulate his way into her pants
Past the button on her jeans to leave a bloody mess
Along with a whispered “hush”
Indentations of my teeth imprinted on my lips

And how proud you must be
That I’m such a bleeding disappointment
My heart pinned like a scarred badge
To my rhetorical sleeve, that refuses to burn
In the alcoholic dousing I’m all too happy to give it

I’m so full of wonderful obscenities
Words I never leant from you
When silence was your motto
To the things a young girl should know
About the big bad world out there

Fast forward this tape eleven years
Your smile still as tense as the avoidance in your gaze
Me still holding my head in defiance
Hiding behind a decade of bravado
And the silent promise that I’d never let you see me cry

Close your eyes and we’ll pretend it never happened…

And I’ll pretend I don’t know your secret
The one you’ve been hiding behind out of duty
To man you don’t even love
Still pretending the world is as it should be
To afraid to admit that men, should never have that power

So, just close your eyes and we’ll pretend it never happened.

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V. 1

Close your eyes and we’ll pretend it never happened…

One…

Two…

Three… i like the start of the poem, it sets the piece up, i expect something

I’m still here, you’re still here and you’re looking at me
With such disdain, no empathy in your voice this line feels redundant. feels weak the way the poem started sort of gave me this impression already
When you say “It happens” is 'when' needed?

And I’m sorry to disappoint, but I didn’t have it coming
Sixteen years old, my innocence shattered innocence shattered feels cliche
Why didn’t you tell me all those things I didn’t know?

And I’m not special that it happened to me
The older I get the common it seems to be that men
Have so much trouble keeping it in their pants cliche

So here I am, and you’re looking at me
Like the great disappointment I am, ‘cause I’ve never amounted to anything
Still running from that look, that sends chill up my spine in teenage terror

Eleven years on and it still brings tears to my eyes
The memory of your face, when you knew and offered me nothing
More than hollow words and a look of disdain for your daughter in pain

Close your eyes and we’ll pretend it never happened…

A smile at your lips, tense as the avoidance in your gaze
While I’m struggling to choke down a history that won’t die
‘Cause I know your secret, and it’s fucked up that you think it’s okay

That men should have that power…

Authors note: I'm overly aware of the repetition of "still" used in this poem. Unsure how to remedy that.