03-02-2026, 02:30 PM
I've been in the Devil for more than three seconds, but she'd probably deny it.
I've met the Devil in the narrow sense before and opposed him, with help. apparently.
And I've been in the presence of the Devil as metaphor many times, and judo with him.
There's never been much interest for me, when it comes to peace and security. When there is any sense of happiness or contentment, I want alcohol or drugs to disrupt my nervous system.
When there are violent situations, I go into survival mode. Whether it is sickness or weather or people or animals or hallucinations or the impulses that come up that strongly insist that I do something harmful. Whether I resist or fail to resist, and other situations outside of my control decide for me, I find the arrangement satisfactory. Harmful impulses have become so easy to handle, resisting isn't a problem. And I'm grateful for opportunities to prove that, if only to myself.
I've met the Devil in the narrow sense before and opposed him, with help. apparently.
And I've been in the presence of the Devil as metaphor many times, and judo with him.
There's never been much interest for me, when it comes to peace and security. When there is any sense of happiness or contentment, I want alcohol or drugs to disrupt my nervous system.
When there are violent situations, I go into survival mode. Whether it is sickness or weather or people or animals or hallucinations or the impulses that come up that strongly insist that I do something harmful. Whether I resist or fail to resist, and other situations outside of my control decide for me, I find the arrangement satisfactory. Harmful impulses have become so easy to handle, resisting isn't a problem. And I'm grateful for opportunities to prove that, if only to myself.