Pigeon Happy Being

[Deor Ana Log]

I pigeonhole more than I breathe

I pigeonhole more than I breathe

Starve more than I eat

Feel more awake in dreams

Get tired of halfway being 

Dwell below damp eyes glow

Can’t separate shade from shadow  

Memory etches away my past

Can’t I just escape the ways it lasts?

Stumble through tuesdays

And I can’t safely sleep

Put who I keep being on repeat

Forgetting the fortune

I know I achieved

So focused on becoming

I forgot to be

Is discovery a dark dream?