"Letter to Natalie" (Self-Harm, Suicide, Language)

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Letter to Natalie

Natalie, you were my drug
When we were together I felt high
But now I can't live
You've all but ruined my life

I bet you didn't think
That rolling up my sleeve
Would show you my demons
And make you want to leave

You tore down my walls
Like a hot knife through butter
But now you don't want me
Since you saw I'm a cutter

I wanted to love you
To make you my wife
When you lied through your teeth
I fell in love with the knife

And if you wanted me back
I'd cast aside my doubts
So I could get close enough
To rip your fucking heart out

I hope you look back one day
And realize what you did
That you gave me nothing
But broken promises

My hearts been passed around
Like a stripper at a fraternity
So If heartbreak was a drug
I'd be high for all eternity

I just can't stop crying
Or get you out of my head
So I think I'll save my tears
And just drown myself instead

What a beautiful scene
I can hear the waves roar
With you still in my arms
As our bodies wash ashore

I can't wait to see your face
When you realize that you're dead
As we're fucking at our funerals
With matching halos overhead