Unreal Birthday

[CRNDLSM]

Unreal birthday, death’s hide-and-seek
-and-never-find is the only celebration I would hyphen the game
permitted me.
Absence tracks me to my lair of words.
I peek out into the dark, imagine your ghost 
walking across the picture windows ppicture windows seems 'cliche'
out and back into night.
Death is no accident and you don’t come back to life
just because I think about you.
Your friends proved that beyond the reach of my hopes. 
Four hours of chatter,  terroristic talk of the living ii was always told terrorist is cliche under any circumstance
falling into my heart pitiless as stones
thrown into an empty pond. I like the 'skipping' stones image
I kept hoping that they would say your name
and you would reappear at least for them.
They never mentioned you.
You are history to them and my bitterness
is the end of their games. Only one game to celebrate

I like the sentiment, there is mystery, there is emotion, 'unreal birthday' is such a good starter I forgot about it by the end.  Maybe switch the first two words of the poem and the title

'unreal birthday'

In absentia, deaths hide and seek...

Just a suggestion, thanks for sharing!