Letting Go of Clarity

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You should have been more clear - 
clear like the air you breathe
in the north, in the forests, in the mountains
of your town.

I longed for dependability 
like the foaming tides
never ceasing to crash and recede, 
but you pulled back and pushed out.

Your sweet sweat dripped down
like the early morning dew
that collects on petals and
slowly rolls down. 

But, on the other hand, 
I saw through you, 
like the water in Antarctica, 
so clear you feel like you are in space. 
Battling ignorance with honesty,
I couldn't tell up from down.

Grounded now, I drill a hole
deep in the ice.
It's so cold your insides will freeze, 
and I let you down.
I am falling, too,
then floating, free.

Old Version:
You should have been more clear
Clear like the water in Antarctica
Water so clear you feel like you are in space
Floating, being

You should have been more clear
Clear like the air you breath
in the north, in the forests, in the mountains
of your town

You should have been more clear
Clear as the dependable tidal waves
Never ceasing to crash and recede 
Pulling back, pushing out

You should have been more clear
Clear like the sweet morning dew
Collecting on petals and
dripping down slowly

But, 
on the other hand, 
I can see through you.
Battles of ignorance or honesty 
you have won
this nonsensical race 
But you were the only one running, anyway

Now i drill a hole
deep in the ice
and let you down.
And i am falling, too
floating, free