Fourth Edit: Hometown

[lyon]

I
The moonlight tried to give me solace.
The transparent clouds knew my intention 
as I paused and pretended to ponder
a decision I'd already made.

I thought of that day last summer,
of how my Résumé was stuck in my hand
like an unwanted love letter,
of how it was best to leave while you were asleep.

II
After retirement, I returned.
You seemed more beautiful than before,
and this made me hate you worse.

Thoughts:
The poem opens with a relationship between you and nature: the moonlight is trying to comfort you, the clouds know your intention. The first is a is a stronger/more intimate relationship than the other, can you strengthen the clouds and your relationship?

I understand the image you're creating in the second two lines of the first stanza, but why pretend to ponder a decision if you're only with yourself? Consider what you're communicating; if it's indecisiveness, if it's doubt, if it's fear, then selectively build your image and choose your language.

I can't quite follow the narrative as it's sequentially presented. In part I is the speaker reflecting after having left? Why choose to return?  I don't think the relationship between the two people in the poem has been fully explored.