Wearing My Issues

[vagabond]

in my opinion it could be shorter in some places, examples crossed out.
 
Most days I feel like I wear
my depression, my anxiety,  I´d not specify right at the beginning (since it explaines too much and somehow creates distance between subject and reader, but that´s just my opinion). Maybe try and let impressions of how depression, anxiety and PTSD feel appear later in the poem, though that´s hard.
my PTSD, and my issues
like a sash of girl scout badges that I proudly sewed on
and wear with my uniform to Brownies.

This is part of a girls' club
of which I've never wanted to be a member;    I´d try to make it shorter: “I never wanted to join”  
something much bigger than me,
replacing my personality,
that I just want to escape.

But I drown myself in it.
I paint it on myself
and it's my identity more often than it isn't.   I think this stanza is a repetition of the stanza above

The girl wearing the sash wants to replace those badges,
one by one,
with things that are more worthy of a life story;
More worthy of topics of conversation;
More entertaining than talking about my rape,     it´s clearly implied that this happened to the subject
or my abuse,
or why I'm sad today.       this somehow makes me think "what, so is there even more than rape and abuse?" if so either include it/ give hints, if not, that line could be left out.

I just want to get a badge that says I learned how to skip today. 
I blew bubbles and they flew and glimmered into the wind.
I played hopscotch and counted to ten while remembering to breathe   this is very good, i like the subject´s subtle attempt to calm down after the shock of rape and abuse in the lines above!
and reciting my favorite rhyme.

It's always been like this.    could be left out in my view, because no one was born unhappy.

Always crying eyes and sad stories and wishing I was invisible;   I´d just write something short like "all the sad stories" it would go well with only shortly mentioning rape and abuse, would somehow show the subject trying to repress the detailed reasons of the "issues". forgive me if I´m intruding too much, it´s all just based on my interpretation!
People asking me why I'm so quiet;
My mom saying (sais) I'm just looking for attention; you could connect this with the first line: -- “while I wish I was invisible”
My dad hitting hits me when -

There I go again.

I don't want to write another sad poem.

I want to rise above it all.     maybe just add “and give hope” in this line .
Is the allusion of the poem´s subject to rising/ being like the sun (in the following stanza) intended? if not I´d use a different word than “rise” in the line “I want to rise above it all".  


I want to give sad people with sad faces like me hope.
It´s a perfectly sincere and true wish for everyone, but still reads a little contradictory that the subject wants to give and then asks to be given in the next line.  I´d leave this line out.

Give me a day where I believe the sun will rise       Maybe something simpler like “First I need to believe that the sun will rise”.
and I will enjoy the sunset without fearing the dark.  it´s a little unclear for what sunset stands here to me, maybe just focus on what should happen while in/ with the darkness.

I like what you say in your poem, especially the badge-metaphor and how you use it.