Perversion

[Brownlie]

Perversion

I can feel my age - you can or you feel it. Does she give a flying piece of roasted poop?
like a nervous adolescent undoing a bra. -- Bleh, so what? 

Do I kiss her neck,
turn off the lights,
or take off my pants? -- Gotta take off pants if you want to have sex. kinda like logistics. 

I want to think my choice matters. -- What choice is there? Are you giving her drugs or something? idk, it's bumpin uglies. Gross if the speaker is giving her drugs or something. 

Then it's over:
a mess, an apology,
and I'm red faced.
I feel with a vague certainty
that our bodies have limitations.

I'm scared, 
I know this will happen again; 
actually, part of me
yearns
for an even worse ending.

idk, i don't like the title "perversion."  I'm not a big fan of yearners in general. I mean whatever. Lots of crap is screwed up. Just try not to be an a-hole or something.