Fetish

[Wjames]

Fetish


The colors will not welcome me.
Again, I am detached
from the blue light of childhood
and the yellow light of manhood. I guess there is a colour spectrum of light, but you might want to make "light" something more concrete, or have the light come off something more concrete. 
Red: who loves it? too hot for the pure,
too much for the combination.
An obscenity -- the sunrise and the sunset
prefer the following hour, the distant memory. Interesting: childhood & death?

The dead welcome me. Through cloud, through
cloud -- I can hear them. Can't you?
How did you grow up to lose your toys,
to dye your hair and shed your voice? I like the dyed hair connection to the previous colour stuff.
(If the grown can grow anymore
than fat and numb) All it should take
to reach them is a step or two, a step
or two towards you, my love, my distant memory. 

Interesting stuff, there are two things most people obsess over (fetishize), their childhood, and death. That's my read, could be something different though, it's not completely clear.

EDIT: it could also just be about how easy it is to sink in to living in the past, reminiscing, etc, instead of just living.