Growing up in God's House -- revision

[Lizzie]

Re-write suggestion from Achebe:

In the church
He whispered to us
if we believed, they said. 
In the air all around us,
I looked for God like people look for ghosts.

I played from the hymnal 
or mom's sheet music, she sitting
at the end of the front left pew
where she once saw Him,
she said,
emerge from the cross
behind the choir during service
and asked if she was ready for Heaven.
She needed more time.

Sometimes I climbed the steps to the pulpit,
tiptoe, looking out at empty pews
and said prayers
through a cold microphone
to the air all around us.
I looked for God like people look for ghosts.