I'm leaving you

[Achebe]

I'm leaving us my love,
my reckless entanglement,
my fucking mad, headlong descent
into today.
You swore we'd die entwined
in each other,
loving each other.
Give me a chance you said,
to prove my love, you said.
Ha! you had me there,
I didn't ever see this coming,
This cold, this freezing cold,
I'd have taken hatred any day.
Didn't I deserve that,
at least that?
Didn't I, my love?

I suppose the first 4 lines could find their way into some sort of a poem, but you lose your way after "You swore" - it just becomes a rant in an 11 AM soap opera.
Perhaps you should try and write a rhyming poem first. Rhyme and form impose a certain discipline that helps when starting out. After that, you can revert to free verse, which is actually the hardest to write well.