What is this cold/hot thing?

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What is this cold/hot thing?


What am I supposed to love now?
Give me your ghost or give me a massacre.
Just don't keep leaving me alone

I find my bleary eyes
slaved to a McDonald's sign,
and I am losing my mind.

Sing into my head
about the boy that missed us?
Leave my hosannas.
You used to sing hosanna . . .
on Easter, dressed up . . .

I'm worn out as a desert stone,
like a puzzle with all its edges gone,
the steam in a sauna
back into the bottle

In this vivid darkness, 
I'm
in the cherry dark,
all alone,
in the ruby dark,
so alone.

This unsalted potato barely looks like my heart anymore.
It barely looks like the thing you used to own
before you up and died.
Why'd you do that for?

I needed you then
now I need you more

Do you miss me
wherever you have gone?
Is it blissful there, or did someone get the whole thing wrong

Now, you are my viole't dream
You're the rainy road under my keening
You're the shuttered windows, no one sees
Could you crane your see-through head and kiss me deep one more time, as I fall asleep?

Where's my baby gone
I'm sitting in my truck 
now the engine's off

where's my Ruby gone
the doors are locked
and the radio is on