Surrender to me

[Magpie]

Mr. Creosote,
I have read this poem with intrigue a few times today, while I get the overall theme of the poem I am perhaps still struggling to tie it all together, I have left some thoughts about it below.

Mundane, repetitive ---- These two words are essentially describing the same state and although it could be seen as a device for reinforcing the boring aspect I still feel that one of them is redundant
Painful in a way that can be endured eternally ---- These two lines together make me think instantly of Sisyphus from Greek mythology who was condemned to roll a rock up a hill for eternity, there are other parts of the poem that keep on bringing me back to Sisyphus 
Heroic to my mother
Surrender to me --- These two lines seem disconnected from the first two and I'm wondering who is 'heroic to their mother' and who should be surrendering to who. Also noticed that from your punctuation this first stanza and the next line are all one sentence, is this intentional.
 
Time here marches not in minutes, or hours, or days… but in years. --- Time everywhere seems to 'march' whether it be seconds or centuries which would indicate that it's a cliche, also 'marching' and 'in years' seem to be at odds with each other.
How many until I get my next week of vacation? --- from the previous line I understand this question to be asking how many years it is until your next week's vacation, which makes me wonder if this is some kind of twisted reality were in where that kind of thing is possible. Was this your intention
Professional, controlled… alive?
Not dead – death is dramatic. 
Death is an end, there is no end here --- there's a lot of repetition in these two lines that could be trimmed.
Gray, sensible and durable

Confrontation is frowned on --- upon?
Antagonism is a better word
They don’t know what antagonism means --- who are they?
A little antagonism makes the hours move faster --- I can't quite decide whether the frequent use of the word 'antagonism' here is a clever poetic device to illustrate being 'antagonistic'
Passion is a sign that you are like the rank and file. Not above them

Stay in line!
You are getting closer to the front, it is better there
Don’t slip, don’t let them know, be a player…team-player --- These three lines take me into a kind of Escher "Ascending and Descending" world which is possibly the scenario that you are wanting to paint
Relaxation technics ---- Typo?? Techniques??
College for the boys, travel when you retire

All of this is trivial in comparison to what I am doing it for…
They believe in Daddy
They don’t care if I win the day
They need me to survive and surrender --- This loses me, but at the same time I am intrigued and want so desperately to be able to tie it together. Does the 'Daddy' here tie in with the 'mother' earlier on. The 'Daddy' here almost seems like an Orwellian 'Big Brother' kind of idea???

I have already surrendered
Aren’t there rules about how much?
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I am intrigued, yet at the same time I am confused about the world that I've been led through. It seems to be a comment on life, society and what some perceive as the boring repetitiveness of a working life, yet there are other things in there that throw me somewhat and make me think that it is perhaps something altogether different. The fact I am intrigued, as I keep on saying, is a good thing in the sense that I believe there is something in this that can be tied together, but the moment I get a huge sense of it being quite disjointed.

I look forward to reading your thoughts on this.
Thanks for the read,

Mark