02-20-2015, 11:01 PM
Do walls normally close
while you lay unmoving?
Darkness, I lay with my eyes close
silence screaming into my ears
So much that it hurts.
Wondering if the tears that I want
to cry will pain me worse.
Then the ghosts of my past.
Those skeletons in my closet
have caught up to my fears.
It was me, just me that has caused it.
I was a fugitive from my nightmares
But finally a sentence has been rendered.
Oh so harsh, oh so harsh!
I should have thought before I entered
this life, sold my soul, Devil’s advocate
That was the offer, taken, never looked twice.
I live in the purse of strangers.
My skin warm, but my heart beats ice.
My touch can burn skin, have one boil.
Torture I was meant to bestow,
but laughter is all that is rendered.
I bring them oh so high, I stay low
but I must go, have to get home now
And to those walls closing faster,
faster then ever before.
No sound, piercing silence screams louder
I cover my ears, wishing the end.
Wishing the devil to reappear
rewrite my sentence, lessen the torture
I would rather the fire sear
my skin then endure another minute of this
He will not for my sentence is unique
I have done all his work, lessen his load.
The giver of sinful pleasure, modern day circus freak
I sparkle in their eyes, vibrantly.
They stare in awe as this gypsy hypnotizes.
One smile, one glance at a time.
The siren in me calls them as the tide rises
They follow until they crash into the sides of mountains
No, I will stay home, walls engulf my fittings,
but I care not for materials.
Silence screaming, but it’s me that has brought these things.
The skeleton sits back waiting.
Anticipating just like a vulture
The shadows engulf my light.
Hell awaits me, this is for sure.
Punishment I will accept on my knees
I will give gratitude for the mercy,
For anything has to be better than this
I will pay for the façade I let everyone see.
For the fox that lay disguised as a sheep
I am the modern day magician
An unbelievable entertainer
Fight if you want, I will have your attention
I dance around, seeing my next victim.
You smile and clap as I take my stance
I play with my prey.
My words cause a serene sort of trance,
Your end quick and painless
Mine slow and disgraceful
I die piece by piece every time I play the game,
Pleading with the devil, he laughs, not very helpful
The walls crash down upon me.
Tears finally start there race,
The silence finally audible.
They scream names I cannot erase.
They are imprinted in every fiber of my being
They are broken because of me, their creed
Is that I am a demon for when they lash out at me,
They cut me deep, but I do not bleed
Maybe it is truth, the words that they leave unspoken.
I cry harder as I realize why the devil won’t renegotiate
It was not a curse, nor a punishment of sorts,
but my own actions that have determined my fate
How ironic is it, that the bringer of laughter is the devil himself.
Laugh, you silly animals, laugh, indulge, point as I
cry, as I wonder why, as I try unsuccessfully
To change, for I do not want to die
Darkness and tears no more, just crushing walls and silence.
while you lay unmoving?
Darkness, I lay with my eyes close
silence screaming into my ears
So much that it hurts.
Wondering if the tears that I want
to cry will pain me worse.
Then the ghosts of my past.
Those skeletons in my closet
have caught up to my fears.
It was me, just me that has caused it.
I was a fugitive from my nightmares
But finally a sentence has been rendered.
Oh so harsh, oh so harsh!
I should have thought before I entered
this life, sold my soul, Devil’s advocate
That was the offer, taken, never looked twice.
I live in the purse of strangers.
My skin warm, but my heart beats ice.
My touch can burn skin, have one boil.
Torture I was meant to bestow,
but laughter is all that is rendered.
I bring them oh so high, I stay low
but I must go, have to get home now
And to those walls closing faster,
faster then ever before.
No sound, piercing silence screams louder
I cover my ears, wishing the end.
Wishing the devil to reappear
rewrite my sentence, lessen the torture
I would rather the fire sear
my skin then endure another minute of this
He will not for my sentence is unique
I have done all his work, lessen his load.
The giver of sinful pleasure, modern day circus freak
I sparkle in their eyes, vibrantly.
They stare in awe as this gypsy hypnotizes.
One smile, one glance at a time.
The siren in me calls them as the tide rises
They follow until they crash into the sides of mountains
No, I will stay home, walls engulf my fittings,
but I care not for materials.
Silence screaming, but it’s me that has brought these things.
The skeleton sits back waiting.
Anticipating just like a vulture
The shadows engulf my light.
Hell awaits me, this is for sure.
Punishment I will accept on my knees
I will give gratitude for the mercy,
For anything has to be better than this
I will pay for the façade I let everyone see.
For the fox that lay disguised as a sheep
I am the modern day magician
An unbelievable entertainer
Fight if you want, I will have your attention
I dance around, seeing my next victim.
You smile and clap as I take my stance
I play with my prey.
My words cause a serene sort of trance,
Your end quick and painless
Mine slow and disgraceful
I die piece by piece every time I play the game,
Pleading with the devil, he laughs, not very helpful
The walls crash down upon me.
Tears finally start there race,
The silence finally audible.
They scream names I cannot erase.
They are imprinted in every fiber of my being
They are broken because of me, their creed
Is that I am a demon for when they lash out at me,
They cut me deep, but I do not bleed
Maybe it is truth, the words that they leave unspoken.
I cry harder as I realize why the devil won’t renegotiate
It was not a curse, nor a punishment of sorts,
but my own actions that have determined my fate
How ironic is it, that the bringer of laughter is the devil himself.
Laugh, you silly animals, laugh, indulge, point as I
cry, as I wonder why, as I try unsuccessfully
To change, for I do not want to die
Darkness and tears no more, just crushing walls and silence.