Last Night's News

[ray]

Last night I watched the news but found it hard to stay awake.
I used to get depressed...no...I suppose you were right,
I got angry then, or so you said. I thought that...
I can't remember what I thought but these days I just fall asleep.
I wish I still got angry, but without you to notice I don't see the point.      - what's the point? would be better, more succinct, avoids too much repetition
I don't see the point. Yes. I guess it has come to that.
It feels kind of liberating to say it. I don't see the point.
All those years we planned our lives, plan A and B.
You go first or I go first. Plan C we thought about but
the chances of simultaneous death...God, how long we took    - I think it would be better not to say the D-word, so but the chances of both ... at the same time...
to say the D-word...well, it just wouldn't happen.
And it didn't. Wouldn't have mattered anyway.
So last night I turned off the tv and the heating.
I opened the window and watched the moon dodging the night.
I'm pretty determined, you know, to write this. It is time.
The news will say it was a cold night, no frost but a blustery old gale
whistling in from Siberia.Siberia always got the blame. Hypothermia. 
I still enjoyed my scotch before bed. Habit. I even asked you if,
if...silly really. I know it. It's just that last night
I thought I heard you say,
" Yes, I'll have a small Cointreau"...          -
tectak2014
still here

 I'm not sure about the ending. Took me a while to get the implication, now I wonder who's alive, who's dead etc. What the perspective is.
How about It's just that sometimes you enjoy a small Cointreau