restless

[just mercedes]

Hi - there's a lot to like about your poem, it gives me a sense of place as context for the loss, and a sense of the protagonist, shown slant-wise. I made a few notes.

[restless
I've got this indecision . . .] for me this is too telling, and not needed because the following lines show me
The power's out
in the kitchen
on my mountain.

I decided
[I'd go and] to check
the itchy sidewalk 
for a cigarette. itchy sidewalk is great imagery - but why the switch to past tense?



And I'd be right back . . .



How could I just
lose you[r love] that way? lose your love borders on cliche - maybe just lose you, which retains that satisfying way/today rhyme, which adds to the feeling of closure, finish, over.
But I did.
That's what I did today.

Thanks for posting this - I enjoyed the reads.