erasure

[cjchaffin]

“thus, art is subjective, as human beings
are not inherently objective creatures…”

the instructor says, and I nod, drawing
a caricature of her in my notebook
alongside scribbles about the Willow Tea Room
and twentieth century Scottish architecture.

I pull the eraser out
of my mechanical pencil,
roll it between my fingertips,
feel the rubber heat up.
It is active, warm, useful—
everything that I am currently not.
I want to rub it on my skin,
obliterate myself from the day.

Instead, I erase the crude drawing,
replace it with notes on Neuschwanstein castle
and daydream of throwing myself from a turret.