I put effort into this one.

[tectak]

You don't know it but you do it. You empower yourself with its consumption.
Haziness is often misinterpreted as happiness. The perceptions at moment become deceptions, using your perseverance to find some sort of reverence. You try to fool but your resilience mimics the silence. The substances you use are to hide its inherit menace.

Oh it's so lovely. You can't stop to stare. You depreciate your senses just to appreciate. Crafting that moment as if it's your own installment. You make yourself want to; to want to die. Just so that you can love life.

I found some spelling mistakes, but it seems ok

This is not valid crit. What use is this to the writer? Would a piece of yours benefit from "...I found a spelling mistake but it's OK"?
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