04-18-2014, 07:02 PM
If revenge is best served cold,
then regret will be tepid.
Like chunks of chunder it will burn
in your mouth and nostrils.
It is the voice of words on a loop,
regurgitated actions and phrases inserted
in place of what was left unsaid.
Triggered by
the finger, the punch, the slap-up-side the head,
from all those pricks who then say “I’ve no regrets”
whilst making an L sign on their face.
Of course, all this is true, but then
only nice people are condemned like this.
The worst regrets are quickened and birthed
in the minutiae of how we have failed;
ourselves, our loved ones, our family and friends.
When there is only us left in the conversation
and the blame lies in a heap at our feet,
we rush to make our exchange, buy a dove
or two at the guilt sellers table.
Call it a crisis of confidence,
a midlife thing if you want,
but right now I have produced
a huge pile of puke, that I am surveying.
The main parade has long since gone past
and I am left up a tree.
I wonder – when Zacharias was adding it all up,
what number he got to,
before he got the call, that he had a visitor for tea?
then regret will be tepid.
Like chunks of chunder it will burn
in your mouth and nostrils.
It is the voice of words on a loop,
regurgitated actions and phrases inserted
in place of what was left unsaid.
Triggered by
the finger, the punch, the slap-up-side the head,
from all those pricks who then say “I’ve no regrets”
whilst making an L sign on their face.
Of course, all this is true, but then
only nice people are condemned like this.
The worst regrets are quickened and birthed
in the minutiae of how we have failed;
ourselves, our loved ones, our family and friends.
When there is only us left in the conversation
and the blame lies in a heap at our feet,
we rush to make our exchange, buy a dove
or two at the guilt sellers table.
Call it a crisis of confidence,
a midlife thing if you want,
but right now I have produced
a huge pile of puke, that I am surveying.
The main parade has long since gone past
and I am left up a tree.
I wonder – when Zacharias was adding it all up,
what number he got to,
before he got the call, that he had a visitor for tea?