Bittersweet Silence

[johannat]

Across the room
Head thrown back , laughing
Laughing that robust chuckle of yours
For some girl
Some girl that doesn't know you.

For a sweet while,
I was yours
We spent grey afternoons and black nights
Many black nights, just talking.
Back when that laugh was meant for me

Down by the canal,
Heads against an old log
Our knees propped side by side
"Cloudgazing", I called it
And you laughed.

Many days later
My head still tender, bruised from that log
I pressed it, prodded it
And smiled
Thinking of you.

Now I watch you
Laughing with other girls, nobodies
But I feel your eyes on me
And I wonder,
If you wish I was still your one and only