Half-way Holiday Blues

[tectak]

Ennui, my fallen friend, I look on you as culture stares at clowns.
Plangent, hollow, bereaved by loss of any interest in life,
bereaved means to lose someone to death. "bereaved by loss"?[b] No. Bereaved by loss of any interest in life. See end. Thanks
and then "of any interest in life" It seems a little awkward to me.
stating loss in definition of a love one and further a loss of interest in life[/b]
I plough the hot and leaden air to flip the sod, to plant the seeds,
but even as I breathe I sigh to watch the withered walk on by.
I'm bored.

This is the condemnation of the very soul I vouchedsafe mine;
no longer can I see the stars, nor reach up to the highest shelf
where only yesterday ( it seems) I placed my, oh what was it now,
and do I really give a damn?
I'm tired.

This state of things, this endless chasing of myself,
this terse forshortened voice within no longer spins the golden flax,
no longer trans-mutates the words into a precious metal melt,
to pour into bejeweled moulds and by some alchemy succeed.
I'm lost.

So congregate around my pyre and light the only fuse still dry
that sputtering in sparking hope the last words left in this dank keg
will burst like sunfire into thunderheaded sky; thence to brand
inflamed, the granite stone above my happy head.
I'm born again.
tectak2013

I liked the poem. It give me a sense of a man who Has seen time do its work. A man who is uninterested with the world around him because age has come and he has done all that he has and things seem to be now at a loss and repetitive. Now awaiting death.

Actually, I feel this way half way through EVERY holiday
Adj. 1. bereaved - sorrowful through loss or deprivation; "bereft of hope". Collins.
Thanks for commenting,
Best,
tectak