I wish I could touch you without wanting to hurt myself

[sunfury]

Hello,

This isn't a particularly cheerful poem, but I had feelings that needed to be expressed some way.

I wish I could touch you without wanting to hurt myself
every time you are near
the pain creeps to the surface
a self defining torment that I can not let go
If I could love anything it would be you
I would love you so much
I would have to let you go
Protect you from the aberration I have become
Hate is what the abused call love
I can see you
and know you are better than that
Better than me
I wish I could touch you without wanting to hurt myself