Poem about hurting someone you love

[guitargirl37]

loneliness claws at my heart
but mistakes
scare it away
regrets swarm around my mind
but reality
won't let them stay

i put on a mask
to cover my hurt
i show the world happiness
with a pitiful smirk

i did this to myself
yet i still wonder
why
why can't it be normal again
it seems impossible to obtain
no matter how hard
i try

i wish there were words
to help me explain
what i am experiencing
through all this pain

as time marches by
i try to take it back
grab it
the clock
rewind
undo
fix all the problems
that i handed to you

sorrow questions my integrity
but my actions
laugh it off
love tries to recapture you
but your heart
has had enough