Unreliable Narrator

[newsclippings]

Edit V2:

This is the first time I’ve done this-
not.
No, the second time-
not.
I’ve got blisters under my eyes-
not.
Cancer in my teeth-
not.
Scraping coke stains off with used cigarette buds-
not.
I erupt over my stale, clogged sink.

.

I once had dreams of better—

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Edit V1:

This is the first time I’ve done this.
No, the second time.

I’ve got blisters under my eyes,
cancer in my teeth.

Scraping coke stains off with used cigarette buds,
I erupt over my stale, clogged sink.

.

I [never] had dreams of better—

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The last line was:
I once had dreams of better—
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This is the first time I’ve done this.
Not
No, the second time.
not
I’ve got blisters under my eyes,
cancer where it hurts.
not
There’s something to be said about the used.
not
It’s weird knowing what I’ll accept.
not
I have dreams of better—
needed.