The Door to Nothing

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First edit:
The door to nothing stands ajar.
All that is lush and green and provoking and painful
rests on our side; on the other is darkness,
an absence of sorrow or love.
The choice to sacrifice your consciousness
may keep it alive, like a sin
which is destroyed by knowledge of it.
I'm ascending the steps of this life
with a gun in my pocket.

Original:
The door to nothing stands ajar.
All that is green and provoking and painful
rests on our side; on the other side is darkness,
an absence of sorrow or love.
The choice to sacrifice your consciousness
may keep it alive, like a sin
which is destroyed by knowledge of it.
I'm ascending the steps of this life
with a gun in my pocket.

Hi Heslopian,

This is an insightful, thought provoking poem.

I think you may reconsider the title because it doesn't come across clearly that it's about suicide.

Should L4 say ....sorrow and love?

'...choice to sacrifice your consciousness maykeep it alive, like a sinwhich is destroyed by knowledge of it.- I'm assuming 'it' refers to the tendency. If so the lines seem self contradictory.
Thanks for the read.