Lisa

[rowens]

There's nothing wrong with writing a poem that's screaming to get out. But what you can do is turn it into art. If you don't read poetry, and you're not interested in poetry as art, that's fine. There's some interest to everyone's life. Unfortunately, there are so many people writing about themselves that it won't get much attention unless you have a very exceptional life. The video games and movies are not your friend if you're always isolated. You obviously have a need for recognition, or at least companionship, and it already sounds like you know what it's like to suffer rejection. If you want to write, then work at it. Do whatever you can to practice and see where it leads, but you have to put down the games and get focused. As for women, they're just as silly as you. They're just as afraid as anyone else, they're just people. If you like a girl, tell her. If you like poetry, write it. If you have problems that keep you from living a "normal" life, so what? All you have to do is accept it, make the most of it, and go for what you want regardless. Some people are born rich, and never have to work, and they get whatever they want and are well respected. You're not fucked up, the world is fucked up. I complain all the time, a writer can complain as much as he or she wants. But I always try to do what I want. If I fail, I might bitch and moan and fall apart, but that's what most people do if you look around. Most of what you see is people wearing masks, and defending themselves from their own fears. You just don't know how to make a mask for yourself, I don't either. But here I am. I got shot down by a sexy librarian earlier tonight. But here I am. And next time I go to the library, I'm going to leer at that sexy librarian all the same. I might even write a poem about it.