Thanks Rose. I'll post some even earlier stuff (read awful) in novice. This was probably my 20-30th poem. To the content, yeah it was a good day to just flipping start fitting in with the other kids. This would have been one of my earlier close to home poems that we talked about. I can accept critique on it easily now. Up to that point, my poetry was more third person observation...this one the speaker was the writer...tougher. I appreciate the comments. 
The secret of poetry is cruelty.--Jon Anderson