10-24-2012, 09:57 AM
This wasn't originally written as a poem, and still kind of isn't, but I was asked a few months ago if I could write something explaining who I was as a person. While listening to Maxence Cyrin - Where Is My Mind (The Pixies Piano Cover) I wrote this.
Thought I would share this. Let me know what you think.
Spoons.
Thought I would share this. Let me know what you think.
Spoons.
Who am I?
I am lost while settled, alert when listening, inspired when I roam and alive when I write.
I am an idealist four days of the week and a realist the other three.
I am the mistakes I make today, the problems I solve tomorrow, the ever changing result of countless ideas.
I am a constant questioner, a perpetual dreamer and the pilot of my imagination.
Who I am differs from day to day, week to month, even year by year.
I am nothing more than a work in progress.
A raindrop amongst countless raindrops slowly meandering down a window, looking for a way to reach the ground.
I am the only person who can change my life for the better.
I am the only person who will ever know my true self.
But who I am the most is someone that knows they will one day no longer exist.
Perhaps it is the knowledge of my mortality that truly answers the question of who I am.
Which isn't someone who fears death or what, if anything, will be waiting.
It is not a fear of some imaginary deity that will condemn me to a place called hell.
It is a worry that one day all I will be is another one of those people who has become a squanderer of time.
Someone guilty of treason in the eyes of anyone who knows its true value,
Who is then judged by the people who achieved more than I did while having much less of it and more excuses not to have.
And in doing so, my punishment will be that having done nothing meaningful I am forgotten.
I am lost while settled, alert when listening, inspired when I roam and alive when I write.
I am an idealist four days of the week and a realist the other three.
I am the mistakes I make today, the problems I solve tomorrow, the ever changing result of countless ideas.
I am a constant questioner, a perpetual dreamer and the pilot of my imagination.
Who I am differs from day to day, week to month, even year by year.
I am nothing more than a work in progress.
A raindrop amongst countless raindrops slowly meandering down a window, looking for a way to reach the ground.
I am the only person who can change my life for the better.
I am the only person who will ever know my true self.
But who I am the most is someone that knows they will one day no longer exist.
Perhaps it is the knowledge of my mortality that truly answers the question of who I am.
Which isn't someone who fears death or what, if anything, will be waiting.
It is not a fear of some imaginary deity that will condemn me to a place called hell.
It is a worry that one day all I will be is another one of those people who has become a squanderer of time.
Someone guilty of treason in the eyes of anyone who knows its true value,
Who is then judged by the people who achieved more than I did while having much less of it and more excuses not to have.
And in doing so, my punishment will be that having done nothing meaningful I am forgotten.