10-30-2021, 05:26 PM
Things are coming back to me
as if I had forgot,
as if I'd not been occupied
my entire life with remembering
eyes all dark and empty,
cold and glassy, until I contemplate them,
I compare them, and they become
as deep and vast and mirrorlike and green
as -- what else? -- the sea.
As if they're ancient history.
Sometimes I wish we were the players
of an Attic tragedy,
masks dividing lips that try to touch
and gruesome ends delivered out of view:
everything we do, we do with dignity.
I really want to touch you.
I really want to feel
your skin against my skin,
our fingers interlaced,
my lips against your lips
(briefly, as a greeting) --
But I always return to the god of my ancestors,
the god I cannot name, who with his contradictions,
with his indignities and idiosyncracies,
contains more than a pantheon. Do you know why he parted
the Red Sea but merely lowered
the River Jordan?
Some believe it's because he hates
what waters cannot be drunk,
whatever will not sate --
It's because there was no heathen
Pharaoh to humiliate
when his people finally came back
to the land he'd promised them.
as if I had forgot,
as if I'd not been occupied
my entire life with remembering
eyes all dark and empty,
cold and glassy, until I contemplate them,
I compare them, and they become
as deep and vast and mirrorlike and green
as -- what else? -- the sea.
As if they're ancient history.
Sometimes I wish we were the players
of an Attic tragedy,
masks dividing lips that try to touch
and gruesome ends delivered out of view:
everything we do, we do with dignity.
I really want to touch you.
I really want to feel
your skin against my skin,
our fingers interlaced,
my lips against your lips
(briefly, as a greeting) --
But I always return to the god of my ancestors,
the god I cannot name, who with his contradictions,
with his indignities and idiosyncracies,
contains more than a pantheon. Do you know why he parted
the Red Sea but merely lowered
the River Jordan?
Some believe it's because he hates
what waters cannot be drunk,
whatever will not sate --
It's because there was no heathen
Pharaoh to humiliate
when his people finally came back
to the land he'd promised them.

