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#1
"All of humanity's problems stem from man's inability to sit quietly in a room alone."

I've been living in almost complete isolation for months, and it seems things just keep getting worse.
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#2
(07-21-2020, 10:29 PM)rowens Wrote:  "All of humanity's problems stem from man's inability to sit quietly in a room alone."

I've been living in almost complete isolation for months, and it seems things just keep getting worse.

Are you alright though?
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#3
I'm drinking excessively. I drank two bottles of whiskey today and I've been through four 24 pack cases of beer since Monday. And I'm feeling pretty goddamn good. I don't feel sick or anything. So I guess I'm OK.


If you have back surgery, and you're in pain, they give you pain pills to deal. If you just take pain pills and you haven't had surgery or anything, you get high.

I'm not high. So I guess I'm in pain.


This lame country music station that my neighbor cranks played this song. And it's actually quite precise.

You were the first thing that I thought of
When I thought I drank you off my mind
When I get lost in the liquor
You're the only one I find
And if I did the things I oughta
You still would not be mine
So I keep a tight grip on the bottle
Gettin' loose and killin' time
This killin' time is killin' me
Drinking myself blind thinkin' I won't see
Now if I cross that line and they bury me
Well I just might find I'll be killin' time for eternity
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(07-22-2020, 10:01 AM)rowens Wrote:  I'm drinking excessively. I drank two bottles of whiskey today and I've been through four 24 pack cases of beer since Monday. And I'm feeling pretty goddamn good. I don't feel sick or anything. So I guess I'm OK.


If you have back surgery, and you're in pain, they give you pain pills to deal. If you just take pain pills and you haven't had surgery or anything, you get high.

I'm not high. So I guess I'm in pain. 


This lame country music station that my neighbor cranks played this song. And it's actually quite precise.

You were the first thing that I thought of
When I thought I drank you off my mind
When I get lost in the liquor
You're the only one I find
And if I did the things I oughta
You still would not be mine
So I keep a tight grip on the bottle
Gettin' loose and killin' time
This killin' time is killin' me
Drinking myself blind thinkin' I won't see
Now if I cross that line and they bury me
Well I just might find I'll be killin' time for eternity
Haha! That is funny, alright take care then.
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#5
And if I did the things I oughta

I don't hear that And in the actual song. I point that out because it makes a big difference to me.

I don't know if anyone else feels the same sensations with seasons that I do. I've spent a lot of time trying to express those sensations and keep them alive. One of the books the library destroyed had a certain smell. And every time I held that book and smelled it, my grandma literally came back to life. Warm autumn feelings of love and friendship and finding fairy-circles in the woods made me and that book one being. The destruction was a mutilation of the very fabric of my existence.

There's a huge gap between knowledge and understanding. Knowledge is rote recordings. Understanding is experience. Knowledge is an MP3; Understanding is live in person, with John Bonham on drums and the music vibrating through your body.

Memory can be as real as real life. But who would choose memories over real life if they had real life in their hands?
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(07-23-2020, 10:18 AM)rowens Wrote:  And if I did the things I oughta

I don't hear that And in the actual song. I point that out because it makes a big difference to me.

I don't know if anyone else feels the same sensations with seasons that I do. I've spent a lot of time trying to express those sensations and keep them alive. One of the books the library destroyed had a certain smell. And every time I held that book and smelled it, my grandma literally came back to life. Warm autumn feelings of love and friendship and finding fairy-circles in the woods made me and that book one being. The destruction was a mutilation of the very fabric of my existence.

There's a huge gap between knowledge and understanding. Knowledge is rote recordings. Understanding is experience. Knowledge is an MP3; Understanding is live in person, with John Bonham on drums and the music vibrating through your body.

Memory can be as real as real life. But who would choose memories over real life if they had real life in their hands?
That is the question.
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#7
I was thrown out of an illegally operated religious establishment today for pronouncing God's name wrong. I put one too many ys in it.

I think the whole troll concept is just the sophisticated Internet age's way to shame people who were born with assholes in place of mouths.
All artists are pretentious. All romantics are creeps. Memoirs are art. Politics is religion. Mediocrity is fair play.

I understand change. But change has no meaning once it's happened.

It took me a while to type that up, because I had to write it down fast with bad handwiting while I was being kicked out of church, in case I forgot it.

Has anyone here ever seen that movie Henry Fool? It was the only vhs tape available in one of the last hospitals I was in. I was in a ward sectioned off with a lot of artist types; and they all killed themselves after watching it, like in that bad remake of that Japanese movie with Naomi Watts in it.
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(07-24-2020, 08:06 AM)rowens Wrote:  I was thrown out of an illegally operated religious establishment today for pronouncing God's name wrong. I put one too many ys in it.

I think the whole troll concept is just the sophisticated Internet age's way to shame people who were born with assholes in place of mouths.
All artists are pretentious. All romantics are creeps. Memoirs are art. Politics is religion. Mediocrity is fair play.

I understand change. But change has no meaning once it's happened.

It took me a while to type that up, because I had to write it down fast with bad handwiting while I was being kicked out of church, in case I forgot it.

Has anyone here ever seen that movie Henry Fool? It was the only vhs tape available in one of the last hospitals I was in. I was in a ward sectioned off with a lot of artist types; and they all killed themselves after watching it, like in that bad remake of that Japanese movie with Naomi Watts in it.
I've never seen The Sea of Trees, came out five years ago. What is Henry Fool?
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(07-24-2020, 08:06 AM)rowens Wrote:  I was thrown out of an illegally operated religious establishment today for pronouncing God's name wrong. I put one too many ys in it.

I think the whole troll concept is just the sophisticated Internet age's way to shame people who were born with assholes in place of mouths.
All artists are pretentious. All romantics are creeps. Memoirs are art. Politics is religion. Mediocrity is fair play.

I understand change. But change has no meaning once it's happened.

It took me a while to type that up, because I had to write it down fast with bad handwiting while I was being kicked out of church, in case I forgot it.

Has anyone here ever seen that movie Henry Fool? It was the only vhs tape available in one of the last hospitals I was in. I was in a ward sectioned off with a lot of artist types; and they all killed themselves after watching it, like in that bad remake of that Japanese movie with Naomi Watts in it.

Both Ringgu and The Ring are classics. What do you watch to get your kicks, Billy Graham?
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#10
They'll get you, one way or another. Convert you into a Christian; or if you're trying to write, someone will try to make you into a real scholar. Thinking a certain way for a long while molds a path in your brain, and to be open to other religions and political positions does violence to your brain. You'll get drawn in somewhere if you don't keep moving and lashing out in every direction. The classics have their positions, and their restrictions. Sobriety has its restrictions. Self-defense has its restrictions. Offensiveness has its restrictions. Drunkenness has its restrictions, and does its damages, but those are only superficial. You use the old ideas until the new ideas are sufficient. And if you love the old ideas, you can steal them and integrate them in yourself.

I used to rage against culture. Now I have no problem with culture. Denounce society, and embrace people's cultures; embrace their holidays and their rituals, and avoid their genocides and political affiliations, and then you only have their quirks and traumas and human frailties to worry about.

That's my game plan. It's not working. But who says it has to?

America is still in infanthood. Defeat destroys rather than enriches their decency and integrity. Americans have been fighting each other over their own land the whole time the nation's existed. America immortalizes its crooks and serial killers and failures, and does everything it can to destroy them and hide them away. America believes in democracy and freedom for all, and can't see anything beyond its borders. And every state has its own borders. Every man and woman is independent, and independence leads to anxiety and confusion and embarrassment. They turn to strong leaders, and strong leaders have to be ruthless, self-protecting assholes, or they'll get shot for advocating peace and understanding.

America depicts itself as being guided by a book few people read, written in languages spoken by another culture in another area of the world, centuries ago, that most Americans actively and vocally despise.

And deep down, every American has a kind of pride.

I myself would prefer to be a citizen of the world. But my passport keeps getting revoked.
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#11
(07-21-2020, 10:29 PM)rowens Wrote:  "All of humanity's problems stem from man's inability to sit quietly in a room alone."

I've been living in almost complete isolation for months, and it seems things just keep getting worse.

That's because you're not the root, you're  the fruit foliage.
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