The Primitive Church

[CRNDLSM]

Working at church would be a blessing,
and I don’t mean as a way to God. 
I’d rather work long hours as a sweeper,
but with no pay, should I even do it? I know you're questioning this but why are you passionate about sweeping?  Apparently it's a blessing but I don't know how unless it's a way to God.
I feel that passion is the key to working.
Once I was at the entrance of the cathedral.
The place was pale yellow and brown
with several crosses on the top.
The woman, an Abesha, asked me if I
wanted the job, I said sure but I thought
why not work somewhere else? Are you considering literally any other kind of work?  Anything specific that would be a blessing without being a way to God?
But being blessed my God would startle
my soul, would I go to heaven easier?
Let it be known that becoming a servant
to God takes years, so I assume
this job would come hard.
But the unholy me wants to disappear
like a genie in a musical, let that be known do you have a specific genie in mind?   Do you mean in a cloud of smoke?
that I want to work somewhere else.vagaries get kind of boring
 
But if I were to work somewhere else
would I be side swiping the job like it were hard to commit to a line of work sure, looking for jobs that are kind of easy maybe?
Tinder? I think life blesses me anyway.
So, I wouldn’t need to work in a church.
Leave to squabble with my dilemma.
Must I work in a church? Must is kind of urgent, how urgent is the desire for heaven, I like the open ending, if you've asked the questions they're never really answered, but I don't like all the questioning

Thanks for sharing, I feel like I've had this conversation in my own mind, sometimes your punctuation drives me crazy but everyone here seems to forgive my laziness in that department so maybe it's just your thing.  I dunno, I'm interested to see what you do to it,