(06-15-2019, 12:44 AM)Todd Wrote: [ -> ]Leanne has been absent from the site struggling with cancer. I got the sad news that she passed away on June 13, 2019. I wanted to make sure you all knew.
I will miss her.
Todd
Todd
I am so glad you posted this with the tact and grace that I knew I could not. I am both saddened and shocked. I know that I am best off saying nothing in situations like this and I read your facebook post with the same awe and respect I have now for your tact and grace. Sadly, i cannot show the restraint you have.
I loved Leanne - in the only way someone can love someone they have never met. i loved her mind and her wit. I loved her writing. i loved her humor and her talent. i loved how she could laugh and play with only words. I loved how she loved to fight. I read she had cancer maybe 6 months ago and I tried to silently send her all the strength I could - both feeling a cold pit inside me and knowing she would beat it. She was so strong.
I need to speak just a minute to those who knew her - not for her or for them, but for me, to celebrate her life and all she brought.
Most knew Leanne as a teacher and a nourisher -because she was. But she had a playful streak as well, and many nights she would play with her words, both in chats and in poems. God, I just realized that i will never see that again and there is a space in my life that I know will remain unfilled by any other.
I will share my favorite story of her because it reminds me of everything I loved about her.
I was having a rough patch. Work was mundane and long and difficult and not really bringing me any joy. And . . . there wasn't really a lot else going on. We were chatting. Random stuff. Poetry, the site. Killing time. She sensed it. She was busy as well. "Write me a poem," i wrote.
I have never asked anyone in my life to write me a poem. It is a stupid request. No one writes anything good on demand and she didn't know me and was busy and a world away.
"What subject?" - she wrote back
"I don't care," I said, "anything but the drudgery of work. Something with magic, elves, dragons, something fey."
"I have to make dinner and finish this glass of wine first," she said, "give me 10 minutes."
The resulting poem, "Fey" became our own private joke for years because as far as i know, she never told any the origin. In my mind, it was always about the two of us - children, playing.
I am not trying to make this about me so please do not take it this way. It is about Leanne - a healer, a writer, a teacher. I will always love her. I don't have any other way of sharing it than the poem:
Fey
It nestles in the elbow of the breeze,
this faerie dance, this seeded chance we spin
from gossamer; these minuets begin
when bubbles burst on tongues in cherry trees.
You bloom for me and I recall the knees
we skinned on bark, and how your sister’s shin
left codeine stripes upon the branch, her thin
and frightened cry, your soothing words, the bees.
The summer fades in sepia and stone.
Today you shrug the honey from my hand
and crack protesting knees in heavy tread
as bubbles sit in dishwater, unblown
and yesterday slinks further from the land –
but in the sun, the cherries still glow red.
-Leanne Hanson